did I ever make "10 bucket list before I die" ?

 bismillah.

yes. I need God guidance while writing this. cz if not, I'll be in trouble.

but anyway. it's been a while since I start this blog. not too long, but not that short either. 4 years. 

what am I doing in 4 years? how many achievements? how many opportunities I grabbed? how many heart I broke? 

God knows. 

I am past my quarter life now. funny how I used to say "I guess by the time I reach 25, I'll be living my best life. I got my education finished, job I wanted, thousands of stamps on my passport" and seeing my reflection on the mirror today and says "glad I survive today". 

what's go wrong?

nothing. honestly.

my life never been as I planned in the first place, so looking back to what I expect happening when I turn 25 versus what is happening today never hurt me. just, I always feel that it could be better.

life I planned? I don't know exactly. maybe that's the answer of the title. did I even  make 10 bucket list? nope.

but. 

(I knew this is tacky) I want to touch the snow. at least once in my lifetime.

nothing special about it, tho. just experiencing something that most people would unlikely experiencing. I feel like, as person who isn't born with a silver spoon, or having parents who is broker or Jeff Bezos, and not having a job who will let me fly around, going abroad is one of privilege I would have to strive. especially if I wanted to fly to another continent where snow would fall.   

cheesy right? 

my taste has been that way since I was born I guess.

anyway. I checked that list a week ago. 

thankfully I could visit Turkey on January 23rd of 2021. while Pandemic still happening, yes. 

I'll tell you another time of how it went.